Published on: November 3rd 2015
Published by: Sourcebooks
Genre: YA Contemporary
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(summary from Goodreads)
A suicide pact was supposed to keep them together, but a broken promise tore them apart.
Allie is devastated when her older sister commits suicide – and not just because she misses her. Allie feels betrayed. The two made a pact that they’d always be together, in life, and in death, but Leah broke her promise and Allie needs to know why.
Her parents hover. Her friends try to support her. And Nick, sweet Nick, keeps calling and flirting. Their sympathy only intensifies her grief.
But the more she clings to Leah, the more secrets surface. Allie’s not sure which is more distressing: discovering the truth behind her sister’s death or facing her new reality without her.
I have been reading a lot of dystopian lately, so it was nice to read something ‘real world’ and you don’t get anymore real then suicide pacts, death and depression. This book was hard at times but wow was it incredible.
Allie is a character that you can’t help but feel for. She is a total mess in this book, devastated by the loss of her sister but hurt and confused as to why her sister would break their pact and leave her behind and all alone. The idea of a suicide pact is horrific but one that I have read about before in My Heart and Other Black Holes and so I was intrigued to see another take on such a serious and sad topic. Allie really struggles in this book making wrong decision after wrong decision and it is hard to see her in so much pain unable to pull herself out.