Published on: March 1st 2016
Published by: Self Published
Genre: NA Romance
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In it’s most basic form this book is about the story of a first love and all the pain that comes with it when it involves two people of the same sex. The struggles, the shame, the ignorance and fear that comes with wanting to love someone whom society dictates you should not be in love with.
I read this book nearly two weeks ago but it has taken me so long to be able to put pen to paper (or more like fingers to keyboard) and explain how incredible this book is.
“What’s braver than honesty.”
Once again Seth picks a not so easy but very relevant topic for the world today. His message is honest and powerful and you get the feeling that his stories are written, not to change the world, but so that maybe just one person might not have to go through what these characters went through and have the chance at something a little better.
“Fate is an artist, and every human body contains two souls intertwined like brush strokes on an artists canvas: your, and the soul of the person you were born to meet.”
The story is told from the POV of Cole, young and in love he wears his heart on his sleeve. He was the sweetest character but struggles with the expectations his family and the world have for him which leads to a lot of self loathing as he fights to find himself a little bit of happiness. He grows a lot in this book from a shy and insecure boy into a man who accepts who he is and what he wants for his life.
It felt like a modern day Romeo and Juliet type of forbidden romance but ten times worse. The injustice in this book for both Cole and Nicky, the pain and heart ache they are forced to go through everyday by denying themselves the simple right of being loved and loving someone in return without judgement or consequence.
“I like you too much. If you were a book, I would read every chapter twice and then tuck you into bed next to me. And the scary thing is…I’m afraid you wouldn’t even pick me up if you passed me in a bookstore.”
This book is about the bravery of being with someone who your family and society deems unsuitable. It’s about the raw desperation of loving someone so much and wanting, needing, that love back in return. The honesty in which Seth tells this story is breathtaking and beautiful but also heartbreaking as we fall in love with these characters and stand beside them as they are put through so much pain and tragedy.
Seth always finishes his book with an authors note, each one of them has made me cry and this one was no different. It was raw and honest and in reading it I realised just how much of himself he poured into this books pages. I never used to read authors notes, and sometimes I still don’t, except with Seth’s books and I have always looked forward to reading them, knowing that I am about to read something personal which as a reader it makes me feel even closer to him as an author.
“To read is to dance with the world, without ever leaving your own brain.”
I am very lucky in the way and the place that I live. I live in the countryside, but not so far from a city. I have a few friends who are gay and most are in relationships and very happy. For some of them there was the initial “coming out” issues, but all of them have very supportive friends and family who accepted them for who they are and support their decisions. They are gay, they are out and they are happy. The life that Cole and Nicky are living is so completely different to the one that I know of and my shame at being so naive to other parts of the world (especially in developed countries) who still treat same sex couples like this and make them feel ashamed of who they are was very prominent when I was reading this book.
“There’s nothing wrong with chandeliers”
Seth King has the ability to make me feel emotions that I crave when reading books like this. Being brought to tears, being heartbroken, actually being made to FEEL the story that I am reading is something that Seth never fails to do and I cannot recommend this book enough.
Re-Readability: Most definitely
I would recommend this book to fans of: Seth King, forbidden romances, epic romances, heartbreaking romances, books that make you cry, beautifully written books